Why Does My Brain Wait Until Bedtime to Freak Out?

Every now and then, I lie down, close my eyes, and wait for sleep to take me... but instead, my brain rolls out the red carpet for a full-blown mental blooper reel. Suddenly, it’s remember that awkward thing you said in 2017 or that one time you tripped in front of your crush in high school. Like—why is my brain so committed to cringe content at 11PM?

And just when I think it’s done torturing me with the past, it starts spinning future fears like a Netflix drama. What if this doesn’t work out? What if I made the wrong choice? What if I'm wasting time?

And here’s the kicker: I’m actually in something good right now. Like, really good. The kind of good that makes your heart full. But deep down, I know it’s not going to last. Not because I want it to end—but because I have to be the one to let it go. And honestly? That might be the hardest part.

Overthinking isn’t just a “you” thing. It’s a human thing—especially for those of us who feel deeply, who reflect a little too much, and who care even when we pretend not to. Our minds get quiet during the day because we’re distracted, busy, doing life. But at night? That’s when the silence hits—and everything we’ve been avoiding comes knocking.

The past? It can't hurt us anymore, but it lingers because it shaped us.
The future? It’s a big, foggy mystery, and we try to pre-worry like it'll help control the outcome. Spoiler: it never does.

And that good thing you’re in? Sometimes the most mature kind of love is knowing when to walk away, even if it breaks your own heart. Because staying for the comfort, when it isn’t aligned with your truth, will end up costing you peace.

So maybe you’re lying awake too, caught somewhere between I miss what was and I’m scared of what’s next. Maybe you’re in something that feels right... but isn’t quite right for you. Maybe you're trying to be brave enough to let go—without knowing what comes after.

If so, you're not alone. And no, you’re not broken. You’re just human, in the middle of a messy, beautiful, bittersweet growth spurt.

Here’s what I want you to try tonight: when your brain starts spiraling, meet it with curiosity, not judgment. Write it down. Breathe through it. Tell yourself, “It’s okay to not have all the answers yet.” Because peace doesn’t come from knowing—it comes from trusting that you’ll figure it out as you go.

And if you're facing that hard decision, the kind where you love it but have to leave it? I'm right there with you. We’ll do it scared. But we’ll do it, anyway.

ChillaxTribe

POSITIVE AFFIRMATION

My thoughts are not facts—they are visitors, passing through.